When Your Life Changes, Let God Change Your Life

I haven't really found an easy way to explain the recent findings in our quest for a fertility diagnosis.  Personally, I am still trying to wrap my mind around what is going on in our infertility journey.  There is no other way around it than to tell it how it is.  My doctor isn't even 100% sure of what we're dealing with, so I'll do my best to explain.


Friday afternoon I had an appointment at the OB/GYN clinic on base.  An appointment to go over the results of my HSG x-ray with the RE, Dr. King.

I took the disc with the images of my x-ray to Dr. King hoping he would say all is good and clear with my uterus.  Well, he said my tubes are open and shaped as they should be. However, something perplexed him about the upper shape of my uterus.  This is where things get indefinite because it was hard to see on the x-ray.  The balloon that the radiologist used to fill my uterus and tubes with dye was resting at the very uppermost part of my uterus.  It was obscuring what Dr. King wanted to see.  He thought the way the dye flowed around it was off and suspects I have a uterine septum.  He suspected this on an ultrasound months ago.  The HSG results only semi confirmed it.

What is a uterine septum? A septation is a division inside the uterine cavity.  Meaning I may have tissue or muscle that is either fully or partially dividing my uterus.  This extra tissue can cause infertility or miscarriage because it is less fertile.  The septum tissue lacks the blood vessels found in normal uterine lining that provide nutrients to an embryo.  So early miscarriages are often a result of septate pregnancies.

If this is the case with my uterus, my chances just went from slim to even slimmer.

Lord willing, eventually an embryo will implant in the healthy uterine lining and develop normally.  I've read that women have carried babies to term while having a septate uterus.  The baby just pushes the septum aside as it grows.  I've also read that women have increased their chances of pregnancy with the septum corrected through surgery.  Right now surgery is not an option because our insurance ends at the end of this month.  I don't know when I will be eligible for insurance through my employer, so for now we just carry on.

Now, some good came out of our meeting.  Dr. King dropped a bombshell on me, but he didn't leave me entirely hopeless.  He hooked me up when I told him that this would likely be our last meeting because my husband got out of the Air Force.  He fudged a little in the prescription department and prescribed me three months worth of Clomid to pick up at the pharmacy that day.  I couldn't believe it!  He also gave me the names of reputable REs in the area, so when I am able to see an RE again I'll know where to look.


That evening I cried.  I felt defeated and devastated.  My battle with infertility has gotten even harder.  I've done a lot of praying and I've found strength in God.  I know in my heart that I'm not alone in this journey.  He is taking me on an incredible journey and I will continue to have faith that this is HIS plan.  If anyone can work a miracle, it is Jesus.

I've found a lot of peace in listening to Christian radio.  Whenever this song comes on tears fill my eyes because even though life is hard, God is so good.  I hope you find peace in this song as well.