Ovaries in the spotlight

I had my dr. appointment yesterday. It was a bit awkward when a man that is not my normal dr. came in, thank you military treatment facilities. We’ll call him Dr. R. I was instantly nervous because I was thinking, is this man going to look at my girly bits? Thank god he didn’t, and I was glad for that. He addressed my ailments, the lovely back pain and allergy-irritated cough, as well as my abdominal pain. He poked and prodded my tummy a bit and determined that I most likely have a functional cyst related to ovulation on one of my ovaries. They usually go away on their own, but scheduled me for a pelvic ultrasound just to check things out.

Leave it to my ovaries to start trouble once I start letting them ovulate again. He said this type of cyst is pretty common, but I’m still freaking out!

Part of the u/s is probably going to be a transvaginal ultrasound which scares the heck out of me.  Look at the photo of that thing!  It looks like my husbands electric toothbrush!  I know it wont hurt but the idea of someone sticking a wand up inside me is creepy. When I read the instruction sheet last night, and it said chaperones are available for this part, I instantly started crying. I hope I don’t have a male dr. for the u/s. It is just too weird.

I guess I’m also afraid of what they will find. I have been hurting moderately which means the cysts could be large, twisted, or ruptured. I’m just so scared of what’s going to happen to me and how it will affect my fertility.

I just started ovulating and this happens. It is so heart breaking. Why do my organs have to be so dramatic? I just want a baby here.